Becoming truly alive…

Becoming truly alive…

I had recently completed my first passion project painting—something that became so much more than I imagined it could be. It was a very intense experience over several weeks, but it was also incredibly rewarding—liberating in fact. Creating a life changing epiphany, revealing that only by living in full appreciation of each and every day do we experience true happiness. A happiness not dependent on some future desired outcome.

Becoming Truly Alive—is an ecstatic expression of living joyfully, celebrating the freedom that comes when you free yourself of worries and live in the moment. Wake up! Make right now the most wonderful moment of your life!

“This is now. Now is.

Do not postpone till then.

Spend the spark of iron on stone.

Sit at the head of the table.

Dip your spoon in the bowl.

 

Seat yourself next to your joy,

and have your awakened soul pour wine.

 

Branches in the spring wind,

easy dance of jasmine and cypress.

 

Cloth for green robes

has been cut from pure absence.

 

You are the tailor,

settled among his shop goods, quietly sewing.”

~ Rumi

Becoming Truly Alive by Kiernan Antares

Becoming Truly Alive 30×30 in by Kiernan Antares

 

The mantra every artist must adopt…

The mantra every artist must adopt…

“Love the moment, and the energy of that moment will spread

beyond all boundaries.”

~ Corita Kent

It’s been a crazy couple of weeks here, between finishing up my Toronto painting and preparing a reveal and getting word from Art Fusion Galleries in Miami that they selected seven of my pieces for the January – March ‘Everchanging Spectrums’ Exhibition – yay exciting news! But then I had to deal with getting them all packaged up and shipped off – all in the midst of not feeling well.

I’m happy to report the unwell feeling has finally passed! Yay again! I’m feeling so much better and happy to say the art shipment is now on it’s way to Miami – whoo hoo!

Now… in all of this I posted the photo of the group of paintings selected by the gallery on Facebook, thinking this is pretty cool news. Then, I see one of the comments posted by a ‘friend’ who has been a fan of my art, or so I thought. He had the gumption to write that people who like this kind of stuff are weird and he much preferred my earlier works.

Thick skin. Thick skin. Thick skin.

Develop. Thick. Skin.

Became a mantra.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Artist’s need to develop thick skin and shrug off comments such as this – if you want to stay positive and committed to sharing art that you pour your heart and soul into – it’s a must mantra to live by.

In my earlier days as an artist, all I wanted was to create beauty to heal my heart, body and mind. Then, when I felt full enough I turned to abstract which freed me to paint what I was feeling – in all the crazy glory and angst – no holds barred and true to my body and spirit.

They might not necessarily be beautiful – but they are real, and raw, and messy, and alive – as life should be lived.

Live the story you want to tell…

Live the story you want to tell…

“The Buddha and Jesus taught exactly the same thing: you create a beautiful life by creating fertile conditions, not by asking for anything. In my own words, what I hear them saying is this: You can have anything you want – why, you can have things you don’t know you want – but not by focusing on them. Instead put your undivided attention on your connection with the vibrant presence of the Divine within, and your life will change.”

Website

~ Janet Conner

Author, The Lotus and the Lily

Last year I completed Janet Conner’s 30-Day Soul Writing Program in the Lotus and the Lily and it was so very powerful and life affirming. It brought home to me a depth and focus that has carried me through this year.

This is the basis of it:

There are thirty experiences, one each day. The first twenty-eight are divided into four week-long explorations:

Week 1 Prepare – step into your natural spiritual power, set your intention, and create your own ritual and prayer

Week 2: Look Back – uncover all the gifts in the life you’ve created to date

Week 3: Create Space – make room for the new by releasing and forgiving the old

Week 4: Look forward – identify what you want in alignment with your soul’s desires

After twenty-eight days of rich exploration, you will spend Day 29 setting up your Soul Day. And then, on Day 30, you will give yourself something precious – a day alone with your soul.”

~ Janet Conner, The Lotus and the Lily

What it helped me do was get out of my head and my ‘thoughts’ of my life and life’s work, and helped me to receive a wonderful vision of what I am creating through my art and writing.

And, because I had this foundation as my North Star, I’ve been able, in a more focused and intentional way, to take the next real steps in creating a body of work that comes from a calling that serves something greater than me.

I sat down with her book this week to decide if I would do the full program once again this year, to close out the year and refocus for 2017.

Three pages in and that was it… decision made.

In particular, the aha moment that sunk in was that it’s not really the thing we want, it’s the feeling behind it that we crave. And, that when we live in alignment with that feeling, which has nothing to do with resisting life, but instead understand that how we live, whether from fearful or loving thoughts and beliefs creates the conditions of our lives, then we can consciously choose love over fear, in every moment.

And, that when we live with love as our core driving force, the conditions of our life will organically become that of Beauty. Every moment dictates the next. Am I expressing love or fear? Am I living love or fear? Am I reacting with love or fear?  The more we can move into living and being love with every opportunity that comes our way… the more Beauty we experience.

So, off I went to search for a beautiful journal to inspire me and this is the one that seemed to seemed to have something to say to me. It is the one that wanted to be a part of my intention setting for 2017…

Gorgeous, isn’t it?

Here’s to living from the heart and soul… and, living the story you want to tell…

Kiernan

xo

A sneak peak update on the passion project…

A sneak peak update on the passion project…

“You have to act as if it were possible to radically transform the world. And you have to do it all the time.”

~ Angela Davis

A calling is a calling is a calling. It’s practically beyond understanding – the why’s and wherefore’s of it all.

What are we borne with that makes us special…

What is our most cherished ideal of life…

What we really truly value almost beyond our ability to breathe in and out…

What does it take to say ENOUGH! Enough of believing the story we tell ourselves for why we keep putting off our dreams… for the unconscious ways in which we sabotage ourselves when we’re right on the cusp of reaching out and grabbing IT… when it is so close, but feels so far that we can’t see it is a millisecond away, if only we can have the fortitude to keep going, to push through that barrier…


Launching my Toronto Passion Project is an act of stepping outside myself and serving something greater. It began with an idea and has blossomed into an adventure and an experience. Letting go of my ideals and thoughts, I’m following the impulses the project seeks me to explore.

A BIG THANK YOU to everyone who participated in my call for help!

Your comments inspired my muse and I’ve been exploring the history of Toronto and discovering some fun facts I didn’t know. Like archeological finds of First Nation settlements artifacts date back several thousand years! And, we were once under France’s rule. In the 1700’s we were known as York and renamed as Toronto in 1834.

Here’s some photos of our history.

I’ve also been learning about some of our local heroes and socially conscious entrepreneurs – people doing really amazing things in our city!

Of course, being outed as the most multicultural city in the world, diversity has become our claim to fame and it is even in our city’s crest.

So, what am I doing with all the comments I received? Well, I don’t want to spoil the surprise, but I can let you know that I’ve put them all on index cards, and then take the key phrases and written them on the panel for the Toronto painting.

Your celebratory thoughts of our fair city are infused into the foundation now, and together our energy will fill the painting with our hopes and dreams and will intentionally radiate with our light out into the hearts and minds of Toronto.

I know it’s possible.

I believe,

in the vision that

came into my heart.

Do you… can you… will you… believe it too?

With love,

Kiernan

On Wings of Love…

On Wings of Love…

“Soul of this world,

no life, no world remain,

no beautiful men and women longing.

Only this ancient love

circling the holy black stone of nothing, where the lover is the love,

the horizon and everything within it.”

~ Rumi

It’s the oddest thing, after all this time living, breathing and painting with vibrant colour, to suddenly find comfort, inspiration, grace, mystery, and awe in tones of black and white… in the contrast… there must lie something… some element of life and all it encompasses.

Can I describe it? It’s like I look upon the painting and in the gentle blends, the swooping strokes and scratched in markings that something enters my heart. It is gentle. It is peace. Yet it is also alive with movement and energy.

There seems to be an elegance about it too, somehow.

I’ve become obsessed with exploring it, which I will until it fills me to the brim and then empties me out.

Wings of Love | 30 x 30in | Acrylic on Gallery Wood Panel

What do you think of the black and white? What does it reveal to you, or does it speak of mystery? I would love to hear, please leave me a comment below.

Kiernan xo

“Don’t become a mere recorder of facts, but try to penetrate the mystery of their origin.”
~ Ivan Pavlov